i just read a blog belonging to a friend's (which isnt very close to me) ex boyfriend. the guy, is studying abroad now, and me and my friends all thought they were a loving couple. ok back to his blog, what he said really touched me, they recently broke up, but he's still holding on to whatever hope that is left. i actually felt quite sad while i was reading it though it's none of my business. perhaps other people who read it, will not understand how he feels. but i do, for i know how it feels to be having a long distance relationship, how hard it is, but at the same time, you feel that it's all worthwhile.

so it's been 4 years and 3 days. from i was 13, until i'm 18. we've ups and downs, i dont know if there's another 4 years and 3 days to come, but i'm happy now, i guess that's all that matters now, hopefully.

anyway, i'm supposed to be at the club now, but i decided to stay at home. i'm tired after all the shopping and eating and playing for the past few days. i really wanted to go, there's a good crowd, (and it'll be the first time i'm gonna use my own id!) but i guess even when i'm there, i'll not enjoy myself cos i'm just too tired. moreover i'm meeting my girls tomorrow! heh. time for bed!

what a tough week! but finally it's over. last paper to go. but why! why must bio people always end the latest? everybody's partying and i'm still stuck with this growth and development, trying to remember funny words like prokaryoae animalia protoctista cleistogamy.... why!

it's raining heavily now - and i love it! i just love rainy weather. gives me a cosy-warmy-fuzzy feeling, provided i'm in the shelter of course. perfect weather for lazing around, but i'm having exams everyday until the 19th, which, most importantly, is one day after my birthday! anyway, my birthday is on mid-autumn festival. perhaps i'll replace my birthday cake with MOONcake. HAHA, not funny! oh yeaa. the white chocolate mooncake from raffles hotel is very nice!

the holidays would have been great if i didnt have to study. but surprisingly. my mood has been good for the whole week. it's kinda amazing, after almost four years, i still feel as if it's the first month of our courtship. all the sweet and heart fluttering moments. HAHA. i'm mad.

no matter the distance.

Adam Sandler - I Wanna Grow Old With You

I wanna make you smile,
Whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I wanna do,
Is grow old with you.

I'll get you medicine,
When your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
Oh it could be so nice,
Growin' old with you.

I'll miss you, kiss you,
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you.
Even let you hold the remote control.
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink.
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink.
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you.

I wanna grow old with you.

have been going out to study these few days. not very productive, but still, more efficient than staying at home to study. there are simply too many temptations and distractions. but i'm staying at home today, going out everyday made me very tired, i think the air con outside makes me very uncomfortable, though i dont know what's the difference between the air con outside and my air con at home. oh ya, i think stress makes me eat alot! haha, really, it's not an excuse. and i have many pimples on my face. sucks.

oh man, the whole week just zoooomed past at the speed of light. lovely days from thu to sunday and now it's time to suffer. wanna complain and whine and shout but nothing helps. nothing can change the fact that the most unprepared exams i'll ever take will be the prelims. nevermind, it's only prelims! still have the As to go. yea.

thursday please arrive soon! i am so friggin bored with studying. no, thursday please not arrive soon, cos i havent finish studying! what mixed feelings. i know i'm talking nonsense.

national day celebration in school was horrible. lousy organisation, lousy games. i must admit the dance items were good; the waving of econs notes was funny; the fact that my class got consolation prize though we did not complete all the stations and half the class were slacking in our homeroom was hilarious; other than all these, i wish i didnt went to school today.

it's kinda sad, that i dont have a sense of belonging to this school at all. in fact, i hate the school. i love my primary and seconday school, but not this school. but i don't really care. i just wish to get out of this school as fast as i can. i mean, i've nice friends, nice classmates, i like their company. but other than that, the school suck.

i am feeling damn pissed off with myself. i am not studying at all! wake up wake up!! i shall be really productive in my studying for these 2 days.

i'm really pissed. YOU have to spoil my jolly mood i'm having these few days. what do you want man? if you think 9 absentees's alot, come'on, the worse is yet to come. not like we skipped school to shoplift in shopping malls or sniff glue at void decks. we are staying at home to STUDY. i really don't understand, why must i PROMISE to give u an mc? this is so childish. and by the way, so kind of you to "help singtel increase their profits" (as quoted from you). but i dont think they really need your help anyway.

these few days had been great. thursday was good, better than just "good", friday was good, had a shopping spree. and today was good too! met up with darling sally in the afternoon, someone whom i never actually met, but know so much about me. so glad to see her. evening was bernie's birthday party. i'm always happy when i'm with my girls. a crazy bunch of "mei li maos" means never ending laughter. and the heart to heart talk with my "new found friend, mandy", haha.
everything has been going well, except for one thing actually, which is my studies! slacked and played so much these few days that i havent do all my tutorials and not to say revision. only left with a sunday for me, and by the time i wake up it'll be like so late already cos it's almost 3am now and i'm still here.

the day is ending, today is a good day.
tmr i'll be thinking, "life was beautiful yesterday".



and HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE.

i am super duper excited and nervous now!!! i wont be able to sleep! lalalalala.

i know i didnt work hard enough enough to acheive that. perhaps it's just luck, i promise i'll work much harder!=)

i see and i hope a better tomorrow.