was supposed to get some stuffs done today, but some of my group members couldnt make it at the last minute, another overslept, etcetc, then i had to contact the others to tell them we can't meet today, and then i have to find a suitable date again. damn, it's hard being a leader, even if it's just for an event!

i'm going to watch the sg vs msia match later! i hope it doesn't rain, don't wanna irritate the rest with my whinings! hahahaha. i'm quite excited about it, though it's not really a big match, haven't been to watch a real soccer match before. some of u must be thinking "you know soccer? the only thing you know about soccer is david beckham!" yea yea...quite true, but i'm still going.

my cousin and i were compiling the songs to be played during another cousin's wedding. i went to search "wedding songs" on yahoo, and guess what, there are so many songs to be played during different parts of the wedding!! songs for the dinner reception, when they cut the cake, for the father-daughter dance (i think it doesnt happen over here), and even songs to play when the bride throw the bouquet of flower to the supposedly next bride-to-be! i hope i'll get the bouquet! hahaha i'm just kidding LA!! we're all very excited (half a year to go!) cos this is the first wedding from our generation in the family. the last wedding was my uncle's, which was 4 years ago, he already has a 1yr old son.

what do you do, how will you react if you realise what you believed for your whole life (ok..maybe a few years of your life) is actually all a facade/lie/your own imagination? also it might be real at first, but you know, things do change, people do change, so what do u do? Wake yourself up from the daydream? How many people can actually do that huh? Most people just continue deceiving themselves, others feel lost etc.. well, who knows what you and i will do.

i look forward to the day that it'll stop hurting anymore.

the weekend's fun! spent fri and sat night with the same group of people, but i still love it=) celebrated kailing's birthday today, it was first a very full dinner at fisherman's village, then all the way down to a bar where we opened a bottle. the bad thing is i've been drinking for the dont know how many consecutive week, i think it's really unhealthy! should put a stop to it. and all the late nights have made my complexion very bad again, anddd i woke up with a swollen eye today! damn bad. i think i should stay at home for the whole day tmr, been spending very little time with my family, when i come back from hall, i always go out, feel kinda bad for treating my home just like a hotel. actually sometimes i do miss home when im in hall. oh ya i brought my grandma to her checkup on friday morning. the needle was so big, it made my heart ache, my grandma is the strongest and loveliest lady on earth!

ok everybody, michelle is going to be a changed girl from now on! i'm going to be really hardworking, attend all lectures (and try not to fall asleep), and do all my tutorials. really, believe me k? will post up photos of saturday soon! crazy night it was, haha.

first week of school, but didnt attend many classes. only went for one seminar, and 2 lectures. they were all ultimate boring, i struggle to keep awake in class, especially the 3 and 4 hours seminar, how slowly time passes when i listen to the teacher speaking in a thai accent. went back home on wed. haha, what a first week of school!

sally transited here just now:) spent a few good hours with her shopping and eating and chatting. and she has this friend, whom i think is really clever. he talked about intellectual stuffs(i think). haha. we were in ben&jerry's when he place 2 identical plastic cups side by side on the table. and he asked me, "are these cups the same?". and obviously, i said yes of course. and he went on by saying.. "how do u interpret the word same? is it by their characteristics? or what? if so, you cant say they're the same because one is on the left, and the other on the right. and therefore, there's nothing which are the same in this world, as nothing, can occupy the same space." and.."ok now consider an apple on the tree, is it really the same apple like few months ago and now? few months ago it was green, now it's red, so is it the same, although they occupy the same space?" found it quite interesting though.

am real sleepy, off to bed.

it has been exactly one year,
maybe i should really do what i should do.

first entry in 2007! haha..well, spent new year's eve in esther's house, just like last year. had a sumptuous dinner (we ran away from the stingray) and played lame games + mahjong in esther's house. reached home around 7am and didnt get to sleep at all, went for tim sum with my family and then shopping! so i practically slept new year day away after that.


one year closer to "25 nian hou de yi ci ban ju hui". HAHA!

so...2006 wasn't that bad afterall, it was quite good, except for the beginning of the year, but it gradually got better. work was good, and schooling isn't that bad too. did a couple of things which i shouldn't in 2006, gotta make sure i dont repeat them again. AND AND, most importantly, gotta get my license this year! (i hope!!) cannot always make people ferry me around, hahaha. and to everybody i love, i love u! happy 2007!

new blogskin for the new year. haha.. and for wanching to leave her "lovely" messages, there's a tagboard too! so yup.. tag!


cousins

after all the late nights, booze and feasts, and rain, i am now sick. and it feels ultimate crappy. after mambo night, the next morning i went to do some, once again, crappy project, which required us to walk around housing estates, and it just had to rain!!! and why didnt it rain today?? it rains when i dont want it to, and dont rain when i want it to, at least if it rain today my match will be cancelled and i can play it another day. feeling very sorry towards my teammates. sigh. okay there's many things i wanna say now but can't seem to put them down in words.

met up with the girls on wed, bern is back, but ws is missing. first time hitting the club with them, and it was enjoyable, but it will be even more fun without the stupid crowd. okok..we expected the crowd, but they were just too pushy in phuture. and i love taking tonnes of photos with them! haha.. another thing! i met one of my jc teacher there! he's bern's friend's friend. but anyway, we played cai quan and he made me drink, many many times! how often does this happen? your teacher making your drink? haha..



dont know how bern managed to take this photo, i swear we didnt pose for it!





so cuteee=)





hahaha..was supposed to crop off the legs








we tried to take sexy poses













met my classmates in the bar

i'm so cold and lonely now, in hall =((( on a christmas day! nobody's here. and i'm here because ive a match tmr morning. i'm already feeling pitiful enough, and it had to rain, to add on to the bitterness! lucky i have kailing's home baked cookies with me, so swweeet.

chatting with teckieee now, about our good old jc days. talked about the times we did our community work during the christmas period at orchard road and we had to listen to the britney spears' christmas song on re-runs. still love the song though, hahaha.

and wanching!! heard from kailing that you don't believe that i dont have a boyfriend huh!! you bad, you gossip abt me behind my back, you backstabber! hahaha. club + stay in hall doesnt equate to having a boyfriend okay.

it's 6.30 am right now, and once again, im waiting for my hair to dry before i can go to bed. christmas eve was great, but super tiring. first it was family gathering at my uncle's place, and i ate ALOT. then off to some guy's house, which is huge. and then it was mos, which was quite alright. drank at all 3 places and surprise surprise, im not drunk! nor do i feel like puking, just a little giddy. took many many photos, post them up soon k. and merry christmas everybody! actually i dont see the big deal with christmas, maybe cos i cant get to spend it with my loved one, so i secretly hate it, haha!

i wish i knew how should i not allow myself to think too much.. how do you know when you are thinking too much? it's when your thoughts affects your mood.. sometimes, thinking too much and asking too much and then knowing too much hurts way too bad..

just played and won our first inter-hall tennis match. it was a good fight because we won from behind for 2 of the matches. and i'm dead tired now, not because i played alot, but it's because i helped certain pretty girl to go and pay her long overdue school fees! that building is sooo high on the mountain i had to climb a steep slope and dont-know-how-many flight of steps to reach there, right after my game! and i only slept for 4 hours last night. slept with the lights on, haha, no dearest roomie to accompany me! and i'm super angry cos my cupboard is very dusty! not outside, it's the inside, all my clothes and stuff. i dont understand!! the room is perfectly fine, it's only the inside of the cupboard which is dusty! hmm.

this afternoon, i was using msn in my grandmother's house when my 7 yr old cousin came over and see what i was doing. she was very fascinated by this msn thing and she insisted that she wanna play. so she started chatting with wilyson online, and when he said "can i be your friend?", she was like giggling to herself, such an amusing sight. what amazed me was kids nowadays, really know the technology well huh. i just told her "read what he say, type what u want to say then press enter", and she could do it easily! (just that she took about 3 seconds to find every alphabet on the keyboard). when we were at their age, we were playing with digimons, not laptops, and i was really fascinated with digimons at that time already!

haven't been in the best of moods lately and i have nightmares everytime i sleep! even afternoon naps. why why why? why can't i at least have some sweet dreams to lift up my spirits? and you know, one of the worst feelings in this world that one can ever experience is to be unable to control you own feelings and emotions or others' feelings and emotions when you desperately want to.

ok....enough complaining.

last night hazel and i went out for some midnight tau-huay. wanted to try out mr bean cafe(saw many cute guys there, HAHA. and no, mr bean cafe is not a cafe which sells tau-huay or anyting to do with beans, nor MR BEAN) but it was too crowded and there wasnt any place to park. we were trying to think of stuffs to do! singapore is so boring, other than movies or drinking, you have pretty much nothing to do at night already. in the end we decided to go home. hahaha, it's really very pathetic!