stop all the "i'll always be there for you, i'll always care", i won't believe it anymore.
stop all the "sorry, -insert excuse-", i'm sick of hearing that.

went karaoke with ludi and meitheng on sat. 4 hours was definitely not enough because we used to sing 8hrs from 7pm to 3am and it still wasn't enough, how can 4 hours be enough? finally could spend some time with ludi, gotta spend some more time together before she's off to canada again:(

you know sometimes i really really dont understand myself. just when i thought i have finally gotten over it, i realised it actually isn't so; just when i thought i've finally found it, i realised it may not be the case. anddd i have no determination plus i'm quite fickle-minded. i dont do what i tell myself i should do. oh god please help me be a better person, help me do the right thing and help me get over the past, the past which i couldn't bring back anymore, no matter how hard ive tried.

yay tgif! work has been rather fine this week, had a 3 hr facial on monday so i practically did no work at all after lunch. and had lunch appointments for 2 days this week, which equals to company paying for nice lunch. hee. ok ok photos ahead!


somebody delivered raspberry meringue (already half eaten in that photo!) to my office and it was really really nice (i eat alot when i work!! very bad). but i think there were too much liquor in it as i felt kinda blurry and headache after eating it, really!! and sleepy too, that never fail to happen around 3-4pm.



my bright pink nails that i thought is nice and had many people commenting on it, some good and some bad. as you can see, the big spreadsheet on my table with alot of figures? that's what i see almost everyday, figures, and more figures.




photos from meitheng's 21st -





by the way, why is nobody leaving comments again?!=(

ws: you update less frequent than me please. pot calling the kettle black!

i'm so tired i can;t take it anymore! i think i've aged, in the past i could go sleepless for two nights! =(( karaoke plus overnight mahjong on friday, slept for 3 hours, then to my aunt's house for some preparation for my cousin's wedding (which is one month later, can't wait), slept for 10hrs and still gotta force myself to wake up at 12 this morning to go do my TOTS stuffs, which i had to be friendly and professional all the time, quite sucky and quite fun at the same time la, haha. reached home just in time for dinner and before i could finish my dinner, my aunt called to say my grandmother is ill. so my mum was very worried and we rushed down immediately. i hope my grandmother recovers soon. and did i mention i've gotten lousy results this sem? and there's work tmr!! how sad.

last day of May today, 2 more months till school re-opens. i hope time dont pass so quickly. nothing special happening lately, but everyday is still as good=) wow i sound so optimistic. haha.. anyway today's a public holiday and i am so glad there's a public holiday this week!! sitting behind the head of my department is so not fun at all! one hour seems like a year, can't wait to go back to my own seat on monday. went shopping with my mum and siblings today and my brother was such a poor thing, he carried all our shopping bags.

ok i've nothing to blog about already.

this past week wasn't really good, but i shan't think about it anymore.

my workload is really inconsistent. if i can balance and tie the figures, then good, i'll be very free the whole day, reading magazines (i have already finished reading all the June's female magazines!) and talking on the phone and chatting with my colleague who sits near me. she reminds me of friend moreena, who practically speaks non stop and very loudly. HAHA. BUT if i cant balance the figures, then i'll spend hours trying to do it, and it's really stressful and frustrating when i cant do it!

spent most of my weekend sleeping. haha i dont know why i am so tired, but i can really sleep all the time! other than sleeping, it was jas's house on fri and grandma's house on saturday, where i just sit around eating and eating while my parents and my grandma and her sibilings and my aunties and uncles played blackjack. i didnt join them in blackjack as my grandma's siblings talk REALLY loudly and i feel like my eardrums will burst anytime. wanted to go swimming with my cousins but didnt bring my swimwear=( they are really cute!!




he tried to squeeze himself in between the railings to get to the pool!
















gh: THANKS. i am really grateful for your concern

shuhui: you still haven't date me out?!?!

wil: i know, continue writing...

the weekends came and went in a flash! instead of making myself feel more recharged, i'm feeling more tired instead. i think i need more sleep!! i cant get enough of sleeping, how?

sat was lunch, then shopping, then dessert at liang seah street, followed by more shopping, then cheesecake, and then dinner! all in 4 hours time! i think i'm going to put on alot of weight. and then an inpromptu mahjong session with my cousin's friends. i won=)) actually, it's not about the money, it's about the winning. quoting from zhenqiang, getting a zi mo 5 tai is "bi3 f*** hai2 shuang3". hahaha! (ok this is very crude i know) i dont know if what he said is true though.

spent my day sleeping today, and then to meitheng's 21st at night. we met this scary man. ok we asked this mid forties guy to help us take a photo when he was passing by us with his wife. and then, later, after taking the photo and walking for another 10more mins, while we were getting into the car, he approached us to ask us to send him the photo he took just now! by the way, he is very stupid because he took the photo with a digicam and he thought he took it with a handphone and wanted us to MMS him the photo. according to him, his "wife wanted some reference, dont know why". he was so freaky and we left quickly.

work is starting again tmr=( i hope i get more facials.

wanching: the cute guy sings on fridays la! but i told you he's not that cute anymore! anyway buy some things back from taiwan for me!!

gh: you're very ZZ. hahha=))

work has been really tiring. didnt know just sitting in front of a computer can be so draining. 4th day of work and i'm already having a headache, as in, literally. my eyes are very tired too. sigh sigh sigh. it's not that i dont like working, i kinda like working, but i hate to feel tired. can't even join the rest at zq's house now after zr's birthday dinner. they must be enjoying themselves now. =((

met ludi and meitheng for lunch today! finally met ludi after 1 yr and 8 days. haha. i walked over to cineleisure at 12.30pm when the sun was scorching hot, and i became another shade darker. hahaha. i think i'm gonna spend every single cent i earned (or even more than that) by just working in town area because all the shopping centres are just a few steps away.

and i'm feeling very depressed now. not because of work, not because i cant be at zq's house, and no, not because i'm gonna spend all my money away too.

wil: seems like you're the only one reading my blog. haha. thanks for your comment, though it isn't really a comment, i dont know what you're writing when you say you're writing. haha.

first day of work was fine, quite an eye-opener too. especially when i looked at all the brand managers, it seems like i'm watching the devil wears prada. hahaha. working in a company in the fashion line is so different from my previous company, a logistics line. i wouldn't say i prefer this one though, both have its pros and cons. i hope the company gives me lots of cosmetics and frangrances. hahaha. anyway, i'm doing accounting stuffs! wished i paid more attention during acc101, now i'm struggling to remember what i've learnt. haha. but i cant believe i'll be doing this after i graduate, looking at excel spreadsheets sucks. i prefer a job like the brand manager. you know, just dress well everyday, look good and that's all you do. ya, right. i heard their job scope is to promote their brand, think of marketing strategies and all.

ludi's coming back tmr! yay! and zq's suddenly coming back too! double yay! i think i'm going to bed, was struggling to keep my eyes open this afternoon, especially after lunch. gotta think of what to wear tmr already.

yay the comments link is working! all thanks to ws!=)) all of you must not put her efforts to waste k? gotta use my comment function! hahaha.

played mahjong for countless times this week. mahjong and ktv today, i'm very tired! cos i walked alot today too. hahaha. and it's gonna be an exciting week ahead i hope. new job, ludi coming back, zr's birthday, meitheng's party. all in a week! i'll be busy but at the same time happy!

testingggggggggg !!!!!!!!! somebody went to play mahjong and leave me to "well well let me figure it out!"

-ws

hahaha i just changed the template of the blog. see the 4 white boxes on the left? you can actually click on them! and the girl in the picture is not me! i know you know, but just in case you didnt know. HAHA. anyway how do i add the comments link? i'm such an IT idiot. haha. well well let me figure it out!

argh, i god damn hate my flu. why must i get caught with the flu bug right after exams? WHY?! why must there be mambo on wed night, and interview on thu? why must ppl keep calling me to ask if i'm at zouk=( but anyway, i hope i get the job tmr.

so the exams has ended for 2 days already. starting to get real bored, haha. and today, 2nd may, is exactly a year since i last saw lulu!! but she'll be back in 6 days time, cant wait! and 2nd may also marks the one-year anniversary of a big mistake i've committed, and still committing. time to stop time to stop....

yay last paper to go on monday, cant wait for it to end. but dread that paper=( FM sucks, just like astro, and biz law, and every other subject. hai.

anyway these are the photos from last friday.


see you in 2 months time DDqiang. HAHA


damn act










very depressed cos i kept making him drink when we played cai quan


he wont ever take a nice photo with me


hahaha guohui damn funny.

it's 4.30am in the morning and i just took a bath, waiting for my hair to dry before i can hit the bed. studied for quite awhile today with ziyan and then met the rest for dinner and drinks. yes, drinking, acting like my exams have ended. argh, 3 more papers to go, i really cant wait. and i screwed up my only small mere chance of getting an A this sem by not seeing the "values are in 000s" in the accounting paper. feel like killing myself, how careless can i get? i wonder if i can even get close to having an A for the rest of the sems to go. anyway i had fun just now, beating jasper and zq at pool. HAHA, all of them are impressed by my skill. please, told you guys i'm good. haha! i'll upload the photos soon but i'm afraid you people will be sick of seeing their faces already=)