finally the block tests are over. yes n i think i screwed it up. first time in my life i think that a maths paper is easier den chem. anyway, it's over, i shan't brood. enjoyed myself for the past 2 days though.

u know, life's ironic.
u are so sure u have something, but it never was meant to be yours.
u feel it near u, but actually, it's far away.
things that mean so much before, had became nothing.
nothing at all. yet, you dont have the power to take charge of it.
you are helpless. life's helpless.

5 more days to block test. somebody knock this into my head!!
i just cant settle down to study. how long is this going to last. and knowing that ppl are mugging like crazy makes me super duper insecure.
god let all the exams pass quickly and let me enjoy doing the things i like to do without constant worries and reminders about undone and un-studied work.
sometimes i wish i'm a nerd who enjoys studying. i used to do very well in sec2. (i was first in class!!!!) what happened to me. WHAT? why did i screw up my Os? and why am i letting myself screw up my As at this rate i'm going? man i just suddenly feel so ~!$#%@()*!!#.

once again, i'm lost.

wanted to watch hitch with ziyan yesterday but almost all the tickets were sold out. so we decided to watch closer and they were sold out too. argh. there's so many movies i wanna watch now. anyway we went meridien to play pool till around 9 and my cousin's boyfriend came to fetch me to celebrate my cousin's birthday at some bar in central square. and all their friends were older than me so they kept bullying me and making me drink. i ended with a hugeee headache and vomiting 4 times. man it feels horrible, i shall not drink like this again in the future, this time i really mean it.

2 weeks to block test. wake upp michelle.