ludi is leaving for canada again today. it will be another 8months or so till she'll be back. it kinda makes me sad, even though i should be well used to this kind of departure already. i was once really angry with god(if there's one), he made my boyfriend(then) and my best friend leave me, one to the US and one to canada. i think it's damn unfair, damn damn damn unfair. nobody would know how much i've gone through to adapt to it. or maybe shua knows a little, as his 3 best friends left Sg too. anyway on the very day last yr when ludi left for canada, i got to know this guy. at first it was really exciting and everything, i thought, hey, it's not that bad afterall, god(IF THERE IS ONE) actually compensated me! but nah, it didnt turn out good, a big mistake in fact but it doesnt bother me anymore(as in, that guy). i still think it's damn unfair, but i guess i've already put away such feeling, i mean the feeling is still there, but i try to hide it somewhere. i guess in life people grow up and people move on. but the thing is, people move on at different pace, so that's the problem. anyway i'm glad luluuuu is still like before, we still like to sing the same old songs at the karaoke, maybe a little more vain, which actually makes it better cos she doesn't complain when we look at clothes and cosmetics anymore. i know this is a very random post and my thoughts are all over and my sentences dont link. bear with it la, you seldom see such posts from me right.

The past 2 days had been a memorable experience for me, and i learned many things which can't be taught in a classroom. it's definitely not easy organising such a big event, which just a few people, maybe 15, we took about 9 months, but we did it anyway, and i'm really proud of ourselves. from deciding the beneficiary, which is by the way, the Children's Cancer Foundation, to getting the event venue, to getting the sponsors, planning 2 full days of performances and activities, contacting the secondary/primary schools, performers, printing the publicity materials, setting up the venue, all the canvassing, etc etc. We really did alot, all by ourselves. I'm surprised that we can go thus far. I think there were at least 600 people involved in this (the line dancing segment already had 300).

Through this experience, i've seen the many types of people around. at first i was pissed, at those people who were so irresponsible and.. i dont know, just sickening. but then i realised, although there may be these bad eggs around, but there are also people who are not in our committee, but gave all out to lend us a helping hand. so i guess it balances.

Anyway, i had alot of fun, though very tired. for once, i think i did accomplish something in life. =)

i am ill!!! (actually typed "i am sick" but decided to change cos it sounded wrong). i am really pissed cos ive alot of things to do during the weekends and i cant be sick! my throat hurts, must be the chocolate ice cream cake and many other things i ate. and i've not fallen sick for i think half a yr already, must be jasper who passed the stupid virus to me. i;m feeling damn irritable. the cold tablet made me slept for 12hrs and i am STILL feeling drowsy. and ive no lunch at home. i'm lonely, sick, and hungry. =((((((((((

I think today is one of the most boring days i spent in months. Woke up at 11, had my breakfast, watched tv, decided to skip lecture, took a nap, read advance theory book, play comp games and then follow my mum to collect my sis's cake. I really felt damn bored, nobody to go out with, everybody's in school or at work, and didnt wanna go shopping cos i just bought 3 bags in 2 weeks. my dad suddenly became nice and bought them for me but i felt kinda bad for being so spendthrift. Really a boring day, but luckily the rest of the week are packed. i prefer being busy than idling!

I think all the weekend sleepless nights are taking its toll on my complexion! my complexion is damn damn bad now. I tried using the emergency mask i bought but to no avail, and i've been diligently applying whitening essence around my dark eye circles, i hope it helps.

I'm superrrrr tired now! started my day with a 0830 seminar, then a 3 hr break before another 3 hr lecture, which i fell asleep twice in. boring, i tell you. school ended at 430pm but i've TOTS stuffs to do at 630pm so i went to zhongming's room to play PS2 by myself. he wasn't in his room but luckily he hid his key in the secret hiding place so i could go into his room. played ps2 until my back acheddd!! you know it's damn tiring when you have nothing to do too?? Sold tickets in the other halls until like 11pm then my mum came to fetch me home, and she told me to either get my driving license asap or find a boyfriend who drives. sigh, what are mums for you tell me? can't wait to push me to other people just because she doesn't want to come and fetch me.

Oh ya another thing, i really can't stand irresponsible people. just because you couldn't get a room in hall, doesn't mean you can quit your position just like that? so who's gonna fill up your position? i mean, please have some sense of responsibility, everything will end in 2 weeks, so why give up now after all the hard work? i know i don't contribute that much, but i do what i really can. damn it.

AND....i'm listening to ong and leong now, it's hilarious!! i cant stop laughing for goodness sake!!!

guohui! i listened to you and went for class on friday! aren't you proud of me? hahaha. anyway, fri's morning lecture was horrible, i think i'm not going for that lecture anymore. then i met nick to go for our elective, we spent a freaking 1 hr to look for that stupid lecture hall, and then the lecturer decide to end the lecture early (which i don't really mind too), so we spent 1 hr looking for the LT, and half an hour inside.

after school i went home to take a 4hr nap (cos i woke up at 0630), watched some tv and then to jas's place. and this is a typical friday (only diff is zr stayed AWAKE throughout the night). oh yea and we started playing poker already, and i lost the most, but still, it was fun.

ok random photos ahead!


super yummy mango pocky from japan


my office table turned into a mini tester for new shades of lipstick, we were to vote for our favourite shades


beckham, which i tore from a magazine


lulu and meitheng ;)

first day of school today, wouldn't bother going to the first lecture if it wasn't for wens, who woke me up at 11+ when i slept at 7am! haha, but we regret going for the lecture, listening to "ethics". and we wore the same thing to school!! it was unplanned and we were super scared that people will think we planned to wear the same thing cos it'll make us seem like we're so childish. anyway skipping school for the rest of the week. what a GOOD start!

this week was interesting. celebrated ludi's 21st on wednesday, happy 21st birthday to my best friend! i'll try to post up the photos soon. thurs was a company event, bowling tournament. haha, basically i just went there to eat =)) met jasper at ps last night and then we walked to cathay, then to the tau huay place, then to bugis to find ziyan! my god my legs are damn tired. of cos, it was our weekly activity until this morning, and then i slept till 2pm. woke up and went shopping, met kl for dinner, ben n jerry's ice cream and drinking at timbre. i'm really freaking tired i tell you, just now when i was walking, i felt like i could fall asleep any moment. probably catching a movie tmr so i'd better have enough sleep or i'll pay $9.50 to sleep in the cinema.

school is starting next week! really super looking forward to it, NOT. damn damn damn, i hate schoooool. 2 more long years to go.