my life is damn screwed.

im hating someone for the things that she's doing. but i find myself doing what she's doing.

im advising someone, giving her advice, but i find another friend giving the same advice to me, i tell people what to do, but i myself cant do it.

and why am i letting myself get so affected by someone, who should be long ago forgotten and who doesnt deserve it? why am i allowing myself to feel so upset? just tell me what the hell is wrong with me? it's been long enough, really.

and to my dearest cop friend, thanks for always being there when i get hurt time and again.

today something exciting happened! not the positive type of excitement though. a unit 3 storeys below my house caught fire! i was lying on bed, watching tv when the tv screen suddenly went black and i could hear alot of commotion. so i went out of the room and my whole kitchen was filled with smoke! man i got the shock of my life. seriously. my sister was like shouting "fire how how??" and for a few seconds i thought MY house has caught fire and im gonna die. and my whole mind went blank, i couldnt think of anything, unlike tv shows where you know, before the actor dies he think of his mum or his girlfriend or whatever. ok then my dad said downstairs caught fire, no words could describe how relieved i was. so we all went downstairs and the first and only thing i grabbed was my phone. we watched as the firemen put out the fire, and i must tell u all something k, i am so in love with firefighters now! all of them looked so brave and dashing when the jumped out of the fire-engines all ready to fight the fire! i know i'm damn bad, a unit caught fire and i was admiring the firefighters, nobody was hurt though.

ok so this incident me think, have i lived my life to the fullest? what regret will i have if i'm going to die right now? sounds cliche, but i just wanna let my grandma and my parents know that i love them and i am grateful to have them, let my siblings know that although they are irritating, they mean alot to me, my aunties and cousins know they are impt to me, let my close friends know that they are really irreplacable in my life, and lastly to my loved one, how much i love him. yup so do it now, tell everyone u love them! =))

ziyan: is this post super long too?

spent my weekends lazing around at home, and it felt great. i practically slept half of my days away - 10hrs every night and 2-hr naps in the afternoon. and today was a typical day-with-ziyan. movies, dinner, pool. the only typical thing we didnt do is to have our favourite tau huay! haha.. ok we watched the departed and i thought it was a great show, just like the hongkong version. i really like the script, i wonder who could think of such an interesting storyline.

bumped into meitheng just now at the bus stop near smu. i was like thinking of her just a few seconds ago and i really saw her! =)

gonna have a halloween party this fri and mag says i MUST dress up. but ive no idea what to dress up as! ziyan suggested dressing up as a cop (due to us just watching the departed) hmm, or maybe i shall just dress up as Michelle. HAHA, ok not funny.

once again, tgif! yup and the long weekend has arrived! ive no class on mon, so yupp! anyway seems like everybody is beginning to study! i shall start real soon too. and guess what, ive got an A for my stats quiz! yay! got it from the help of esther though. hahaha.. but just a small part of it!

i just sat in front of the tv set at home for 2 hours channel-surfing. if only i have cable tv in my room in hall=(

photos taken on friday







supposed to be like a class photo. HAHA. why am i the only one smiling? dont you all smile slightly when taking class photos?

he looked super touched



nice muffins!







damn act



us w/o zr

the most hilarious pic of the night. zq:drummer, stacey: harmonica, ziyan: recorder, esther: flute and jasper: violin



disgusting!

today's friday the 13th, but it wasnt such a bad day for me! TGIF! such a busy week it has been. ok did many things today, started off by 830 class when i only slept at 4+ the night before, and 2 presentations today, which went pretty okay i guess. it was home sweet home for one hr and then i went off to vivo city with kl n zy. vivo city is such a nice place!! ok if u think marina square is nice to shop, vivo city is like 10times better! so yupp. im darn happy cos it's like only 15mins away from my house if i take the NEL.
after vivo city it was off to geylang to meet the rest of the 2harmonians. we ate frog porridge and then moved over to yonghe for doujiangyoutiao! KL and i was damn full cos we still ate beard papa and shilin chicken at vivo city! and after that, we went to settler's cafe to play a series of lame card games. lame but super fun! haha. and of course, zq's birthday muffins. i thought he was damn touched. photos soon! oh and gotta wake up early tmr for breakfast with henry! not enough sleep = dark rings. long day tmr too.

spend mid autumn festival in my grandma's house last night. played fireworks and lantern with my 3 lil cute cousins! they are so cute! and they are not afraid of the fireworks at all!! they even dare to lit it up themselves. i dont dare u know! im quite scared of it. so shameful!










met up with bern on thursday! yay! we went to shop, have desserts, and then jap food.it was a happy time together with my most lovable girls!







series of meli-acting-as-wax figure


series of meli-acting-as-wax figure 2


series of meli-acting-as-wax figure 1








meli took this photo!











yummy desserts


more of it

why do you keep running through my mind?
why did you have to change?
where's everything we once had?
what can i do to make you care?
you never had time for me,
even if u do,
we are too far apart.