my christmas eve was spent with my best friends(minus mag). the boat ride was really great. the "scenery" was nice. too bad the millions of photos we took couldnt capture the background nicely. as in, the background is too dark, i think we are lousy photographers. anyway i was wearing ugly slippers which doesnt match with my clothes as it was raining and this is the slippers with the most friction.

i finally got a job. but i had a hard time deciding. One moment i have no job at all, the next moment i have many jobs to choose from. i sincerely hope that i havent made the wrong choice.

i am very sad, i havent found a job yet.

anyway last night i had the worst feeling in the world. never been so drunk in my whole life. the last time i was so drunk, i only puked 4 times, but last night, i vomitted 10 million times. haha, i must have smell and looked horrible! goodness. but i was still sober, i know what's going on around me, just that i feel really uncomfortable snd my mind was in a complete whirl. i dont really understand how people can become really high that they dont know what they are doing, and i dont wish to know either. haha. and there's this very nice girl who took care of everybody who was drunk. she followed me to the toilet to puke countless times and massaged my head for me, some of the guys were nice too.

to my 2 best friends, i love both of u. mag u gave me a shock when u kiss me! hazel,i wonder why the alcohol had no effects on you at all, and u drank more than me! =)

wil, i miss you.

michelle chia and her boyfriend, i forgot his name.. u know, jingjing's boyfriend in holland village? he looks really..ehh..casual.


playing uno!


love of my life - ice cream! there's teh tarik flavour, and it tastes good! nice pink big bowl




our true identities






how funny!




squeezing into a fitting room


yummy

these couple of days have been great. met up with my girls last night and we took lots of pictures. then we went to this very cool ice cream parlour, it's nice, there isn't many of such ice cream parlours in singapore.

went shopping early this morning, to beat the crowd. i really wonder why are there so many people in town shopping on a weekday. singaporeans dont have to work?? there are so many things i would like to buy, but so little money to spend. TSK!! i'm still waiting for the money to drop from my ceilings.

and finally i've received my present that i thought was lost on the way here from california. YEAH. =D after more than 2 months of waiting.

photos photos soon soon

just sent a dozen job applications. hopefully i'll get a relaxing and well paid job. went shopping again today. bought things but not for myself =). money money please drop from the ceiling! i want to fulfil my USA plan soon.

anyway, just received my mobile phone bill for the month of november(month of A levels). it's $33.15!! can u believe it, that's the lowest bill i ever got for my phone. my mum's gonna be pleased. i used to have bills of $120 in secondary school. now i think of it, i think it's ridiculous.

i feel good today.

i've been sinking in and out of "depression". one moment i'm happy, a while later i'll be feeling really sad and empty. i miss my wil, i miss my bestie ludi. i feel happy when i'm shopping and buying things, but when i'm home, and looking at those things i bought, i get sick of myself. why do i always spend so much money, i should be saving! saving for a 1600bucks air ticket.

i really really need to think of my future. i feel very..aimless.

anyway, i'm hooked onto a korean drama shown on channel 55. "love in harvard" i've never had much interest in such shows, not even meteor garden, i find such shows very unrealistic, very exaggerating, but this one i'm watching is good, somehow i can feel how the character feels. haha, sooo cliche.

post exams days arent as good as i expected. yea i do go out and have fun, but sometimes i just feel really weird. kinda lost and lonely. as if someone/something is missing. perhaps i just cant get use to slacking my days away (you must be thinking "isnt that what u always do?") nooo, i studied very hard during the exam period ok.

i think i need to really start thinking about my future! i have always wanted to be a gynae, but i gotta face the fact that the probability of me getting into medicines is like 0.001. i dont know what should i do already then.

i need to see someone very badly.

So here we stand
In our secret place
Where the sound of the crowd
Is so far away
You take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong

So how do I say
Do I say goodbye
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down
Like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again

But no matter how far
Or where you may be
I just close my eyes
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet

why are there times like this when i feel so lonely?

the pig that sings and dances for me. :)

been having lots of dreams lately, a few in a night. i dont know why i have so many dreams, last time it was maybe 5 dreams in a week, now it's like so many! like i'm watching tv when i'm sleeping. my friend says i'm too tense, should try to relax. i think sometimes having dreams deter me from having a good night's rest. anyway, two nights ago i dreamt that i got AOO for my a levels (kill me). and last night, i dreamt that pan wei bo's my boyfriend. stop laughing, i know it's hilarious, i think so too!

i had the most horrible nightmare ever in my life last night. what happened in my dream is the worst thing that could happen to me in real life. i just kept crying and crying and crying. when i woke up there were actually some tears at the corner of my eyes. when i woke up..i was..i dont know, relieved is an understatement.

then it set me thinking, what IF it really did happen, how am i ever going to recover from the sadness, how am i ever going to recover, will i be able to pull myself together? the answer is quite a definite no i guess.

so, this may sound cliche, but treasure everyone before u lose them.

-so i'm officially out of the sch.(that is if i pass my As)(which by hook or crook, i will do it) nothing much on the last day of school, no sadness, no nothing. only a tinge of sadness when i received a card from my econs teacher. not really sadness, just touched. very touched indeed. i mean, she's the one i respect the most in the school. but i do appreciate what the other teachers did. she wrote "although quiet, i do observe that you are very diligent and produce quality work. i am happy to have u as my student." which is true, i always did my econs homework, in case she ask for an answer from me during class and i do not know how to answer. there was once she asked me a question and i said i dont know how to do. and she said, in front of the whole class, "this question is so easy" haha.

but i was so pissed on the last day of sch because i did not receive any cca appraisal form. HELLO. although i did not contribute much for the 2nd year, i did gave my best in j1. he's the one who looked down on me anyway. really, i think i should have join something like co-op or green club. it's so much more relaxing and i will at least get a D instead of a E.

alright, enough of this, i dont really care anyway. if not i would have approach him to BEG him for an appraisal form.

-i think i'm someone who thinks way too much. so much that i worry too much, which leads to it controlling my emotions and actions. and at the end of everything, i'll realise all the thinkings are really redundant. gotta change..

-time to start on ionic equilibria. (or "equiliBRA" as pronounced and spelt by someone)

just watched a series of happy tree friends episodes. HAHA. i was watching mtv channel and they actually showed happy tree friends! reminded me of Ms Lim showing happy tree firneds to the whole class during english lesson in the com lab in sec4.

and in a blink, today is the last day in jc. and you know what. i got caught for short skirt on the LAST day of school. on the very last day i wear a uniform for lessons. i dont know, somehow my relationship with this school is cursed i guess. first day of school i got scolded, last day of school's still the same. never liked the school anyway, been waiting for this day for ages, the day i leave the school.

yes, i dont deny there are nice teachers, but.. oh well, shan't mention too much here. who knows who might be reading this. anyway, 26more days to As. that leaves me with 5 more days for each subject..

Beach Boys - Wouldn't It Be Nice

Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know it's gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn’t do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy

Wouldn't it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice

the sunburn is so painful. feel so sorry for myself and my beautiful skin. went tanning and swimming with bern and furnise on sat, didnt expect myself to be so burnt! we still thought the sun didnt stay long enough! =( ok, blame myself, for i did not apply any suntan lotion.
it's apparently about 38 more days to As? i am very scared i tell u. very scared. i feel so unprepared. if only the sec2 michelle would come back, i dont know where she has gone to. but to think of it, i didnt really work that hard in sec2 too, all last minute work, i guess i was lucky that all i studied came out for exam (sometimes the teachers' tips were kinda obvious) and for once, i'm gonna admit, home econs and d&t did help to pull up my overall percentage. hey, but that's because i'm so adorable that the home econs teacher liked me alot..not everyone is so likeable right? HEHE.

david: hey! yup i'll work hard for exams. see you soon okay.

albert: excuse me, my blog is pretty, but i am prettier.

i will not be late for school tomorrow! seems like i'm too used to waking up late. anyway i am really worried for my As. it's like, 5 more weeks away!!!! this leaves me with 10days for 1 subject. not enough time, not enough time...

met up with my girls on friday. we had dinner, then ice cream and then prata and teh-ping (for some it was teh-tarik too)haha. i am so afriad of putting on weight! but i think there will be more prata supper to come cos 130 is damn fast =D
okie here's moreee photos cos ive nothing better to do! better than reading words right.


meli look so cute here!


us with our desserts.


they wanted to eat gin-jie-pijia at first. HAHA. it's so funnY!! i cant stand it.


frosted chcolate malt


to note: jiemei's sexy butt and dior's suicidal symptoms.


they say forever eighteen. we are forever eight.


jiemei,ws and bern. nice photo. all thanks to the photographer!




girls are girls.


we can take photo everywhere


shy!




this is exciting though we look like we're barbqueing chicken wings.


next time we must try to break the high score for the spot the difference game! never give up! haha.


yummy prata. bus 130 rocks!!


only photo with furnise!


we're happy people.

met up with my besties last thursday to celebrate my birthday and we ate at a pizza restaurant at wisma. which reminded me of the times we always eat together after school and we always ate so much that we had to unbuckle our school skirts. love!


hazel and mag


self shot


it's so typical of hazel to do that!


i love my best friends








the last 4 photos show how fat i'm gonna get


coupling shot 1


coupling shot 2


coupling shot 3