new blogskin for the new year. haha.. and for wanching to leave her "lovely" messages, there's a tagboard too! so yup.. tag!


cousins

after all the late nights, booze and feasts, and rain, i am now sick. and it feels ultimate crappy. after mambo night, the next morning i went to do some, once again, crappy project, which required us to walk around housing estates, and it just had to rain!!! and why didnt it rain today?? it rains when i dont want it to, and dont rain when i want it to, at least if it rain today my match will be cancelled and i can play it another day. feeling very sorry towards my teammates. sigh. okay there's many things i wanna say now but can't seem to put them down in words.

met up with the girls on wed, bern is back, but ws is missing. first time hitting the club with them, and it was enjoyable, but it will be even more fun without the stupid crowd. okok..we expected the crowd, but they were just too pushy in phuture. and i love taking tonnes of photos with them! haha.. another thing! i met one of my jc teacher there! he's bern's friend's friend. but anyway, we played cai quan and he made me drink, many many times! how often does this happen? your teacher making your drink? haha..



dont know how bern managed to take this photo, i swear we didnt pose for it!





so cuteee=)





hahaha..was supposed to crop off the legs








we tried to take sexy poses













met my classmates in the bar

i'm so cold and lonely now, in hall =((( on a christmas day! nobody's here. and i'm here because ive a match tmr morning. i'm already feeling pitiful enough, and it had to rain, to add on to the bitterness! lucky i have kailing's home baked cookies with me, so swweeet.

chatting with teckieee now, about our good old jc days. talked about the times we did our community work during the christmas period at orchard road and we had to listen to the britney spears' christmas song on re-runs. still love the song though, hahaha.

and wanching!! heard from kailing that you don't believe that i dont have a boyfriend huh!! you bad, you gossip abt me behind my back, you backstabber! hahaha. club + stay in hall doesnt equate to having a boyfriend okay.

it's 6.30 am right now, and once again, im waiting for my hair to dry before i can go to bed. christmas eve was great, but super tiring. first it was family gathering at my uncle's place, and i ate ALOT. then off to some guy's house, which is huge. and then it was mos, which was quite alright. drank at all 3 places and surprise surprise, im not drunk! nor do i feel like puking, just a little giddy. took many many photos, post them up soon k. and merry christmas everybody! actually i dont see the big deal with christmas, maybe cos i cant get to spend it with my loved one, so i secretly hate it, haha!

i wish i knew how should i not allow myself to think too much.. how do you know when you are thinking too much? it's when your thoughts affects your mood.. sometimes, thinking too much and asking too much and then knowing too much hurts way too bad..

just played and won our first inter-hall tennis match. it was a good fight because we won from behind for 2 of the matches. and i'm dead tired now, not because i played alot, but it's because i helped certain pretty girl to go and pay her long overdue school fees! that building is sooo high on the mountain i had to climb a steep slope and dont-know-how-many flight of steps to reach there, right after my game! and i only slept for 4 hours last night. slept with the lights on, haha, no dearest roomie to accompany me! and i'm super angry cos my cupboard is very dusty! not outside, it's the inside, all my clothes and stuff. i dont understand!! the room is perfectly fine, it's only the inside of the cupboard which is dusty! hmm.

this afternoon, i was using msn in my grandmother's house when my 7 yr old cousin came over and see what i was doing. she was very fascinated by this msn thing and she insisted that she wanna play. so she started chatting with wilyson online, and when he said "can i be your friend?", she was like giggling to herself, such an amusing sight. what amazed me was kids nowadays, really know the technology well huh. i just told her "read what he say, type what u want to say then press enter", and she could do it easily! (just that she took about 3 seconds to find every alphabet on the keyboard). when we were at their age, we were playing with digimons, not laptops, and i was really fascinated with digimons at that time already!

haven't been in the best of moods lately and i have nightmares everytime i sleep! even afternoon naps. why why why? why can't i at least have some sweet dreams to lift up my spirits? and you know, one of the worst feelings in this world that one can ever experience is to be unable to control you own feelings and emotions or others' feelings and emotions when you desperately want to.

ok....enough complaining.

last night hazel and i went out for some midnight tau-huay. wanted to try out mr bean cafe(saw many cute guys there, HAHA. and no, mr bean cafe is not a cafe which sells tau-huay or anyting to do with beans, nor MR BEAN) but it was too crowded and there wasnt any place to park. we were trying to think of stuffs to do! singapore is so boring, other than movies or drinking, you have pretty much nothing to do at night already. in the end we decided to go home. hahaha, it's really very pathetic!

mich

you are the most silly and stupid girl on earth. can you stop it and wake up, NOW?


love,
mich

it's 6am now and i am not asleep yet. waiting for my hair to dry! long hair is very troublesome! anyway mambo was great, had fun today, but it was reallyyy packed. my toenail is dropping due to the many ppl who stepped on my toe. it's painful! met people from my hall, whom i nv even see before!

the cab uncle on my way back was really chatty! but he's nice, he asked me to study hard! hahahaha. he said my daddy is at home waiting for me with a cane already. no way man, my parents are sleeping so soundly they dont even care whether i'm home not.

okay my eyes are really painful now, but i cant go to sleep cos my hair is still so wet and the hair dryer is in my parent's room! i'll wake up with a headache if i sleep with wet hair. butt, it doesnt matter now cos i'll still wake up with a headache anyway cos of all the drinks. i'm a bad drinker, but i'm improving, really. no longer down after half a bottle of hooch. hahaha.

as you have realised, i'm typing very random stuffs to keep myself awake now. hahha, so what else shoud i talk about? hmm. oh yea i took many photos but none of them turned out good =( and my legs are veryyyy tired now cos i was too high at the beginning.

ok i just realised the hair dryer's in the living room! arghhh. waste my sleeping time. see ya people!

if only i can have everything i want, if only what i wish happen, will happen. it's not that my life's not good enough, it's perfectly fine. i just wish to have that little bit more, but yea, face it mich, it's not gonna happen. if only you would understand, cos i know you don't.

have been doing alot of things after the exams ended. it has only been 6 days, but it seemed like such a long time has passed. haha. did lots of shopping (and more to come!). went to the temple with my cousin yesterday and then chatted with her till 3am in her house! cos my mum was playing mahjong there. hahaha. and yup, i played mahjong today too! with the guys and ziyan, for 2hours, and i lost 10cents. met up with my pri sch girls after mahjong and it was the usual dinner + gossiping session. =)

had a good 11-hours slept. =) made up for my lost of sleep for the past two nights. finally, the exams had ended. i dont feel that exhilarated this time, i think it's because i didnt study that hard anyway. and i hope i can pass stats.

nothing much to do now, i suddenly feel soo free. all my friends are still having exams. i think i shall go to the bookstore and buy a couple of nice books to read, it's time i re-fuel my old passion! hahaha.

it's 7am now. if you are wondering what made me wake up so early, you're wrong. i havent sleep for the whole night! tried to go to bed at 6am after studying at smu overnight, but i just couldmt fall asleep. and the feeling really sucked. it made me feel very jittery. i shall STUDY now! arghhhhhh.

i just had the worst nightmare everrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.=(((((

went shopping at vivocity with my cousin and sister yesterday. i behave like my exams are over! haha. the scenery of the sea and cruise and cable cars at night is really nice. and it reminded me of the last time i was on the cable car. i was happy, and it was memorable.

yay, one more paper to go. but then it's the STATS paper. arghh. worst subject among all. anyway, marketing was alright today, maybe cos i wore my lucky necklace to exam today! ahahaha. ziyan asked me why it is lucky, i told her it's cos i seldom wear it, though i see no link in why me seldom wearing it will allow it to bring me luck. HAHA. well well, i dont wear it often cos im afraid i'll lose it, just like what happened to my first valentine's day present.

dinner with hazel and ziyan after the exams. had our dinner at almost 9pm! poor students nowadays. went for nice bak kut teh and then ice creeeaaamm at icekimo. i love icecream! i think i can finish a whole tub!!

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again


yet another of the old nights.

the things we do together. study, eat, club, posing

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in the libary again

in hall

in the club with jinyuan

halloween!














nydc



new york new york!








as you can see, i have nothing better to do to post so many photos, and then i realise i should be studying, so i shall not waste time to correct the screwed up captions.

tomorrow's the first day of exams, and also, today's the last day of A levels, which means that i have not taken any exams for exactly one yr already. (except for my basic theory, haha) i'm really having difficulty getting into the exam mood, and it's a whole new type of exams im having as this time, it's all open-book exams, and i dont really know how to study for it. moreover there aren't any tys for me to do! yea there are past yr papers, but there's no answers! and i have no idea how to answer those questions. so i dont know what i will do tmr. probably spending 3/4 of the time flipping through the 600+ pages textbook.

if only im still working=( just talked to my ex-colleague on the phone and the way he talks rubbish makes me laugh. it's not that i dont like studying, i enjoy uni, hall life, going for lessons(sometimes) etc, just that i dont like the stress that comes along with it, and how all my friends are so busy with schoolwork. during the 8months holiday, when everybody was working, i meet up with everybody all the time cos everybody is so free! (and everybody had spare cash).

and also, through my job, i get to talk to people from the different walks of life. especially young people around my age, who are not the typical sec sch-jc/poly-uni type of friends i have. a few of them are from ite, and you know, although they are not as educated as most people are, they actually have better moral values than some guys i see from uni, who sleep around etc. they treat their relationships, be it with their girlfriends or friends, seriously.

anothing thing, it's been really hard for me to fall asleep at night these days. i wonder if i've been thinking too much, and dreaming too much after that.

I've been cheated by you since I don't know when
So I've made up my mind, it must come to an end
Look at me now, will I ever learn?
I don't know how but I suddenly lose control
There's a fire within my soul
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I've missed you
Yes, I've been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, now I really know,
My my, I could never let you go.

I've been angry and sad about the things that you do
I can't count all the times that I've told you we're through
And when you go, when you slam the door
I think you know that you won't be away too long
You know that I'm not that strong.
Just one look and I can hear a bell ring
One more look and I forget everything, o-o-o-oh

Mamma mia, here I go again
My my, how can I resist you?
Mamma mia, does it show again?
My my, just how much I've missed you
Yes, I've been brokenhearted
Blue since the day we parted
Why, why did I ever let you go?
Mamma mia, even if I say
Bye bye, leave me now or never
mamma mia, it's a game we play
Bye bye doesn't mean forever

just watched the first episode of one of my favourite hongkong drama serial on tv. you know, the pilot show. have watched it twice already actually. haha. i realised i can watch a show many times if i like it. take my sassy girl for example, i think i've watched it six times already. i guess i'm like this, when i like something, i really like it, and i like it for a long time, and this applies to human too. it's good in a way, and bad in some ways.

just came back to hall. it's almost mid-week, but i feel that my week has just started! had a super long weekend, and didnt study at all cos i didnt bring any books back! hmm.

finally the end to a hectic week. 1 report, 1 quiz and 2 presentations. cant say i did superbly well for all, but i can say i did tried my best.
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ent to smu on wed, and the library is really nice! the buildings are nice too, kinda regret rejecting biz management there. well well, but their projects are really taxing, so i guess i should feel glad being in ntu. took many silly photos with hazel and mag and it was dinner at new york new york together with meitheng! the only thing's missing is the presence of our beloved ludi! i miss her!

ok exam's is in 2 weeks time n guess what? i havent even got my marketing textbook! that's bad. i should have more motivation.

my life is damn screwed.

im hating someone for the things that she's doing. but i find myself doing what she's doing.

im advising someone, giving her advice, but i find another friend giving the same advice to me, i tell people what to do, but i myself cant do it.

and why am i letting myself get so affected by someone, who should be long ago forgotten and who doesnt deserve it? why am i allowing myself to feel so upset? just tell me what the hell is wrong with me? it's been long enough, really.

and to my dearest cop friend, thanks for always being there when i get hurt time and again.

today something exciting happened! not the positive type of excitement though. a unit 3 storeys below my house caught fire! i was lying on bed, watching tv when the tv screen suddenly went black and i could hear alot of commotion. so i went out of the room and my whole kitchen was filled with smoke! man i got the shock of my life. seriously. my sister was like shouting "fire how how??" and for a few seconds i thought MY house has caught fire and im gonna die. and my whole mind went blank, i couldnt think of anything, unlike tv shows where you know, before the actor dies he think of his mum or his girlfriend or whatever. ok then my dad said downstairs caught fire, no words could describe how relieved i was. so we all went downstairs and the first and only thing i grabbed was my phone. we watched as the firemen put out the fire, and i must tell u all something k, i am so in love with firefighters now! all of them looked so brave and dashing when the jumped out of the fire-engines all ready to fight the fire! i know i'm damn bad, a unit caught fire and i was admiring the firefighters, nobody was hurt though.

ok so this incident me think, have i lived my life to the fullest? what regret will i have if i'm going to die right now? sounds cliche, but i just wanna let my grandma and my parents know that i love them and i am grateful to have them, let my siblings know that although they are irritating, they mean alot to me, my aunties and cousins know they are impt to me, let my close friends know that they are really irreplacable in my life, and lastly to my loved one, how much i love him. yup so do it now, tell everyone u love them! =))

ziyan: is this post super long too?

spent my weekends lazing around at home, and it felt great. i practically slept half of my days away - 10hrs every night and 2-hr naps in the afternoon. and today was a typical day-with-ziyan. movies, dinner, pool. the only typical thing we didnt do is to have our favourite tau huay! haha.. ok we watched the departed and i thought it was a great show, just like the hongkong version. i really like the script, i wonder who could think of such an interesting storyline.

bumped into meitheng just now at the bus stop near smu. i was like thinking of her just a few seconds ago and i really saw her! =)

gonna have a halloween party this fri and mag says i MUST dress up. but ive no idea what to dress up as! ziyan suggested dressing up as a cop (due to us just watching the departed) hmm, or maybe i shall just dress up as Michelle. HAHA, ok not funny.

once again, tgif! yup and the long weekend has arrived! ive no class on mon, so yupp! anyway seems like everybody is beginning to study! i shall start real soon too. and guess what, ive got an A for my stats quiz! yay! got it from the help of esther though. hahaha.. but just a small part of it!

i just sat in front of the tv set at home for 2 hours channel-surfing. if only i have cable tv in my room in hall=(

photos taken on friday







supposed to be like a class photo. HAHA. why am i the only one smiling? dont you all smile slightly when taking class photos?

he looked super touched



nice muffins!







damn act



us w/o zr

the most hilarious pic of the night. zq:drummer, stacey: harmonica, ziyan: recorder, esther: flute and jasper: violin



disgusting!